Eternity Speaking- Misty Edwards

While we were on our trip across America for the two wedding this last two weeks we had our old ipods going and this quick blip of Misty’s come on. Its a 14 minute blip to music. If any of you have ever heard Misty preach, she preaches with such passion its hard not to listen and take in every word. She is INTENSE!

It is a quick teaching/yelling to music that holds so dear to my heart. I listened to this everyday faithfully at work or driving for almost a year. it got me through so much and kept my eyes straight, and not grasping after the wind. I though of how wonderful it had been to me in the past and i wanted to share it.  I would completely recommend listening to one of her sermons. She speaks my language. Here is a link to a few of her own teachings. 

I hope it speaks to you like it had for me :)

Here is the link to THIS actual sermon as she says it, i hope I got it right, but i do have two kiddos and a husband so……….. You can listen as you read mine or whatever you prefer. 

Eternity Speaking

We use words like friend of God, or we use words like experience God, and I don’t think we really know what we’re talking about. We’re talking about a Being, a vast uncontainable, undefinable, outside if time, Being. That we so flippantly talk about called God. Before time began He was, this vast expanse, I mean you cant get outside of Him. You could go to the very edge of the edge of the edge and still God is there.

He is Undefinable, He is.

And this is eternal life to know this Being. And the knowledge of God leads to the love of God. And Jesus said it, He says, “If you know Me and if you abide in Me, you will love.” And this is a generation who will have visions, and visitations and will see things that no other generation has ever seen, but at the end of the day, Did you learn to love? Did you learn to Love? At the end of the day when its all said and done and you are just a naked human soul before the throne of God, Did you learn to Love?

Life is a Vapor.
For real.
Life is a vapor, and you are not of this world.
For real.

Its not just a nice song, its not just a nice thought, its not an escapism just to kinda get out of responsibility, its a reality. You are not of this world. You are going to die in about 50 years, for real, maybe sooner at best. Life is a vapor. You are going to die, sooner then you think. You are going to face the uncreated One, in your barrenness, in your raw self, you are going to face the uncreated One.

All flesh is grass fading away.
Only You last only You remain.

But what you do in this age with your heart response in love is the only thing, the only thing, the only thing that matters. In the truest sense of the word. Why are you here? To choose love. You are made for the uncreated One. And the one thing He wants from you is your voluntary love. He wants you to stand without offense, and He wants you to stand in the knowledge of Him, in voluntary love. And one of the number one ways that voluntary love is expressed is through pouring out your life for your brothers and your sisters. It is a violent, a Violent reaction when you go against the current of the age,and you say, “I will not live for myself, I will not live pursuing my own way, I will not built my own kingdom, I will not go my own way, but I will choose to go low, in humility. I will serve my brother, I will serve my sister, I will lift them up making them greater then I. Knowing in the age to come I am storing up riches, upon riches, upon riches, which in just a moment I will see.

It is a violent thing to stand in an age of lovelessness. It is a violent thing to stand in love, before the uncreated One and say, “I want to love you with all my heart, You who I cant not see.

May my life scream transcendence.

There is a God, and he has a Son. And His affections are on me. And the expressions of those affections in this darkened word is my life poured out. The reason why the greatest expression of Love in this age is servant hood is because He is a Servant. You want the knowledge of God become as He is. Look at Him and then do what He does. You will be flooded with the knowledge of God. If you want the kingdom of Heaven, you want the power encounters that your looking for, that Im looking for, we want this realm of eternity, become a servant of all. It is the surest and the only way to the knowledge of God. Because He is a servant. That is His very nature, He comes and He gets under the people. He comes just like he did the first time, He is a servant, Yes He is a great King.

He is a great king who serves.

If you want the knowledge of God and you want the supernatural encounters, dreams and visions and healings and encounter. Dive deep into the love of God, and express it through loving your brother.  And you will be flooded with the knowledge of God. The knowledge of God always leads to Love. Always. Because He is Love.

If you know Him, He goes, “How can you say you love God, but you hate your brother? Your a liar and there is no truth in you.” And do you know what it means to hate your brother? It doesn’t mean to only say I hate them and be frusterated. Thats not the only thing that hate means. Hate means jealously, contention, strife. Those kind of things are birthed in a hate for your brother. Those are the kind of things that lead Cain to kill Able. It was the jealously, contention and the strife that created a hate in his heart. If you embrace hate you become like the enemy.

How many of you have read Matthew 5, 6, and 7Sermon on the Mount, Christianity 101, He says turn the other cheek, He says love your neighbor, this is the way of the Kingdom. Yes we are going to do great exploits, yes we are a generation who will stand in a warring spirit, yes we are a generation who will lay hold of the things of God but how will we do it? We will do it though the power of passion, through the power of love. It is violent.

There is a great equalizer called eternity and it doesn’t matter what sphere you might have or what hand you’ve been dealt so to speak. It doesnt matter what your circumstance is, if you have a horrible home life, and you have all of these issues that your trying to work through, nobody’s mentoring you. Nobody’s going to bring you to the fullness of who you are. You have all these thing coming against you, and nobody’s really there to help you, those things are not going to limit you from being great in eternity. Your going to die any minute anyway, you may not have a great sphere in this life, you might and you might not, it doesn’t really matter but if you don’t you can be eternally, eternally, eternally wealthy, eternally great.

There is an invitation that the Lord wants to give you in this hour. To set your heart on a pilgrimage, not of this world. Set your heart on a pilgrimage to be great in eternity. You are going to be there in just a moment, you are going to be there in just a moment. And what you have done in love and service is what is going to stand in that day.

Give yourself to the heart of God.

With a violence, give yourself to the love of God, and to loving your brother and your sister and I promise you in just a moment when we step over that line, and we stand in eternity, your wisdom will be justified. Your wisdom will be justified. It is the only thing that stands, it is the only thing. Its what is done under the sun that is vain, when you do things as an end in themselves, they end.

The only things that remains is what I do before the uncreated one.

Are we a people who are willing to give everything to the fasted lifestyle to Christianity? Theres no other way to be a christian. Its Matthew 5, 6, and 7. Jesus himself said it, theres not an alternative way its not only reserved for a few. Now what it looks like may look different for different people. Its not an option, if you want to live as a Christian in your generation and you want to make a difference and you want to make and impact Matthew 5, 6, and 7 is the only way. Its servant hood and its love, because He is love and humility is His nature.

You want the knowledge of God, then embrace His nature, embrace who He is. He said, “This is how you know that I am in you and you are in Me, this is how you know. If you abide in Me and I abide in you, you will ask what you want and it will come to pass.” But how do you know if you are in Him? If you do His command. And do you know what His command is? LOVE. And I think that the Lord is saying to this generation, “Die to yourself, DIE to yourself, that He could live.” Die to yourself and you are having a ministry.

Your ministry is to lay down your Life.
Your ministry is to not live of this world.

You want to be an apostle, you want to be a prophet, you want to be a great man or woman of faith lay down your life. Die to yourself daily, pick up your cross and follow Him. Die to yourself through desire, through desire and you will find a romance that will be awakening your heart. You were made to live with something to die for. You were made to live for somebody else. Its like romance, its like giving yourself to someone else. Its living totally other than.

There is a passion living inside of the human soul. I think its even unique in this generation. We want something to live for, to fight for, something to die for. This is it… lay down your life, lay down your life, lay down your life, and you will enter into such a divine romance, you will enter into the power of God like you have not known. But only when He can trust you. When He can trust you is when you are walking in true humility. When we are walking as He walked in this life, not of this world. My heart is set on a pilgrimage. Not clinging to things, not grasping after the wind, not of this world. Walking steadfast day by day by day, abiding in love doing what He has commanded. Living an expression of His heart in this age.

My ultimate destiny is to become one with the uncreated one.
My ultimate destiny is to marry the Lamb.

And I want to be equally yoked in that day. I want to be equally yolked in love. And to be equally yolked in love I must be as He is. Holy as He is, not of this world, not given to jealousies, and contentions and things that weigh us down. Not the lust of the age, not of this world. Its all fading away anyway. Its all fading away anyway. Its all fading away. Its just a grasping after the wind, all of it. The only thing that remains is the heart that lays in emotion of the knowledge of God, that heart that lays in servant hood, that heart that lays in love for the uncreated one. This will remain. This is wisdom, the days are short, the days are very, very, very, short. Not only are you going ot die in a minute, but its the end of the age. The days are very short. And he wants friends in this hour. He wants friends of the bridegroom, for real.  He wants apostles, He wants prophets, and He wants people He can intrust Himself to. Who will not cling to the people, who will not who will not take his own sheaths and build his own kingdoms. He want shepards after his own heart.

His heart is a heart of a servant. His heart is the heart of a lover.  You want to be a shepard after His own heart, do you want to stand in the councils of God and hear what is going on, The emotions between Jesus and God and Holy Spirit. You want to be a friend of the bridegroom, do you want to be a radical forerunner at the end of the age?

Love and love well
Serve and serve with all of your heart, your soul, your mind, your strength.
Go low in humility, and He will lift you up
Your wisdom will be justified

This is all that remains, this is all that reamins. Every time you say, “yes” you are reclothing your inner man and you are living from a different age. When you say, “I choose love, I will not take vengeance, I will not take revenge, I will not be jealous, I will not live according to my flesh. I choose love.” You are working that muscle and you will be strong in that day, and you will be strong in this day. Thats the only thing that remains.

Fill us with the knowledge of you oh God, fill us with the knowledge of you. teach us the simple way, show us how to serve our brothers and sisters, teach us the way of greatness. Lord I ask that You would do what only You can do, and You would let a clear sound of the frailty of life and what is coming in eternity, would You write it on our hearts oh God. Write eternity upon our hearts, Write eternity upon our hearts, Write eternity upon our hearts. That we would live for the age to come, that we would not be of this world, that we would not be weighed down by the jealousies, contentions, the strife, the lust of this age. God I ask that you would invade this generation with the knowledge of You.

God is love

Over the past few days I have been thinking about being a mom, what it looks like to be a parent. I still dont know but I know better then i did before I was. I just need a place to put my thoughts for now, and store them away till one day i can look back and see what I have learned and add to them over time.

I was sitting before the Lord, probably cleaning or doing something trying to give as much as I could in that moment to the Lord, and I was reminded of a very significant encounter I had with the Lord. It was when I was pregnant, during a candlelight service (for something) and I was taking communion and out of the stillness and quiet flicker of the flames around me, I heard the thundering voice of the Lord speak to my heart. It was so sweet and such a proclamation over me, He said,

Your . a . good . mom.

Thats it, but it shook me to the core, to the very deepest part of me, because nothing is hidden for His ever searching eyes. At the time I was so terrified I wouldn’t know how to love this coming child, and to raise and disciple him!? I was never the babysitting, kid loving ‘type’ per-say, I always kept my distance, never changed a diaper, never made a bottle, didn’t know how to do ounces, I mean I knew nothing, and then to to it all by myself (excluding my beloved husband) out in Kansas City with no family around within a 600 hundred mile radius.  Anyways I think you understand that it shook me and gave me a hope.

Of course when Bodie came my world was shaken, turned upside down, inside out, got messy, and yet my heart was alive. I not talking alive for the first time, but alive for the first time ‘parent/mom’ kinda way. (Now I don’t expect anyone that has yet to have a family understand what Im saying, but when you do you will. And its glorious, the most glorious) Its like a new heart was inserted next to the other two already in there. My chest couldn’t take any more, it was surely going to explode, and i can tell you it has a few times.

Within the first few weeks of finally holding my little boy, I would look at him and how innocent he was (still is) and just cry finally having to pass him off to Dan and walk away to re gather myself. I would cry and cry and cry, not because of anything other then him, and the realization of what Jesus feels, what the Father feels when He looks at us in our young and innocent states. I think His heart really did explode with the stars on the fourth day of creation, what else could he have possibly done with that much joy? He knew He would have a family forever, a faithful Bride for eternity. I understand He IS Love. He has had an entire earth of creation for generations, and generations, granted they are not and have not all been faithful but even the thought, just the thought, of one loving Him, the thought of my son being one of those few. wow. I truly am honored with such a heavy and weighty burden, to raise him in truth to raise him to be a man after God’s own heart.  How? Im learning, somedays by failure, but i am learning, and trying my hardest to show him that there is a God that IS love. I know I have heard that phrase a thousand times and it has impacted me in many ways, but now i can say i have made a connect with what that really means. It all comes down to God would HAVE to be love to be God, to be everything the bible says, and the testimonies of old claim, and yet He really is. He really is true, just and faithful. He is simplicity, beauty, hope and joy, the lion and the lamb. He rightfully clothes himself with light, and His breath kindles coals. HE . IS . LOVE

Anyway, when I would hold him and he was so brand new, and just laid on me and fully trusted me for everything I was hit with a hammer of true intercession. Im not talking deep groans from within, it was deeper, I still dont know how, but it was. The weight of the Lord’s words to me that night at the candlelight service, proved to have so much more weight then I had realized. Looking at my son, knowing that he knew he was taken care of and loved, and would eat again, the Lord showed me how lucky he was to have a mom and dad like us. Im not talking about me and patting myself on  the back, but how he was given to me to raise him, ME..?! But yes it was me, not a mother that would have put him in his crib to cry all night with the door shut and try and tell me he needed love or was hungry. No, not those parents who beat and abuse their children because they don’t know who they really are.

I know who I am. Im a lover of God, Im Gods most precious, I know who my son is and will be, I care that he has a vision of fullness, I care that he is told he is loved, and that he is prefect. He will always be fed, and clothed, and loved. Above all else he will know that there is a Jealous God after his heart.

The realization of people becoming parents that dont give their children love and really do shut them away in their crib to gaze into darkness and cry, finally falling asleep hungry. Thats real, I mean really real. And I am not one of    t h o s e parents.

I . am . a . good . mom . and . he . IS . lucky . to . have . me

Im sitting here fighting back the flood of tears just thinking about the realization of babies in these situations, and I still am crying out for these little ones, and why they are put there. There isn’t an answer I can give, only prayer. My son was so blessed to be put in a hand picked out home that loves His Son.

God is so good!

My walk might look 100% different then it did when I was single and then after I was married, but its so good hard but good. I have struggled so much with my walk not ‘looking’ like everyone elses. With not being able to go to the prayer room nearly as much if at all, with having to sit in the mom’s room during church and only catch a few out of place phrases from the message, not having time to read my word like before, not going to my beloved bible study where I flourish. But you know, it shouldn’t look the same, if it does you have it all wrong.  You need that time with the Lord, thats not what im saying but, what I am saying is that your giving it your all may look like 10 second prayers through out the day. Or maybe it looks like rolling on the ground with Bodie. I cant be a good mom when I am thinking about how Bodie is taking up time with the Lord. Thats not how its supposed to be.

Some of the greatest times of revelation from Lord is when Im rolling around on the ground tickling, or chasing Bodie around. Why? Because I learn so much I would never have before. When I am fully giving myself to Bodie in that moment, or day, there is nothing closer to the Lords heart then to see me connecting to the most valuable gift given to me (besides my salvation and my husband), giving it my all, my 110%. I know for a fact the days I think I would rather be sitting in the prayer room are the days that I make so much more ground in my walk, (wether I feel it or not) when im givin my all to my baby and husband.  The phrase “If momma ain’t happy, ain’t nobody happy” is so true, mom is truly the heart of the home. Its better to be giving it my fullest and be happy doing it then me fasting and bringing everyone down, at this point at least.

So I guess in closing being a parent looks like, putting your needs second, learning to take a hit and say no to the outside world and friends at times, saying the 30 second prayers all day to keep you afloat and your heart alive. What it looks like to really Love the Lord is to give your family your fullest in that moment and not be double minded.  It looks like having a second heart implant, new heart fully given to that child. I now can truly say I know what it looks like to be the Lord’s favorite one, the only one in His heart, and He really would die just for me. All because He IS love.

I know this was long winded, and probably a little jumbled. But I needed and wanted to write it down so I could keep adding to it. Its late and im tired and wore out, so im not even going to go back and reread this, hopefully it makes sense and you wether you have a family of your own or will some day, are impacted in a way I was.